Reality/10 second sound off

Today was a dumb day and in reality this whole week has been chaotic and dumb. I'm so sick of how everybody treats each other and how people don’t seem to care about each other’s feelings. I’m not saying I want fields of flowers and unicorns or rainbows nor do I want love or world peace, but I would definitely be happy with respect and kindness. To be completely honest I’m sick of this world it’s disgusting, don’t get me wrong, because externally the world is great but internally the world is REMARKABLY disgusting and it totally shocks me to think that we have to live in it year after year. Every January 1st around 12:00 a.m I cry myself to sleep because I can’t help but to think about what tragedy is going to strike this year, or about how many people I am going to lose this year about how many I lost the years before, I think about everything and all the things I’ve missed out on and am going to miss out on. I hope that every good thing that falls apart in our lives actually does catch up and make better things fall together.